Life in Reverse

Sitting in a rocking chair reading a book in your own retirement home, having your wife sit across from you doing the same exact thing. Flying the plan backwards from all the places you went after you retired, and you start to just think that traveling is a dream that may never become a reality. You go back to your job, and you start making money again. The next 10 years you are sitting behind a computer doing your job because you wanted to be an engineer after college. An internship for your summer job between your college years. Ending freshmen year in college starting to have an idea for what career is going away because you're starting to lose knowledge you acquired from that year in college. Now graduation comes for high school, and you are feeling free and ready for college not knowing the hours that are going to have to be put in. Half way through senior year, getting letters from colleges that you applied for and getting a yes or no on the acceptance letters. Having seniorites and not wanting to put any work in for school, but now senior year is starting and you realize that you have one year left and want to go out with a strong GPA to get into a good college. Junior year rolls around and you're just finishing the hardest school year yet because you are challenging yourself with the classes you take. The next few years you go through sophomore then freshmen year of high school, and you go back to middle school. Starting to realize how hard school is getting and having to put effort in it to get good grades. Heading back to elementary school, not caring about anything besides recess in school and snack time. Becoming younger and younger each day, having to rely more and more on your parents again. Now being pushing around in the stroller everywhere, laying on your mom and dads laps, crying all the time again, and now back to being one day old just being brought into this world.

Revisiting the past

When looking back at old pictures I always remember this one set of pictures because every time I see them I see myself at that place. That place is my grandparent’s old house because I use to go there all the time with my family. I remember playing around with my siblings in the yard, and having my grandma brings us food that was always amazing. It makes me sad thinking about those memories because I know I won’t be able to relive those memories. Seeing how happy I was in the pictures make me want to go back in time and replay the moments.  I remember going there every winter to ski, and I miss it every day. There are action shots of myself going down the ski slope with my dad and just looking at that picture makes myself feel like I’m reliving the moment. Even though I still go back to my grandparents’ house sometimes and go skiing it almost feels the same as I did when I was a little kid, but it never feels exactly the same. If it felt exactly the same those pictures wouldn't mean as much as they actually do to me. I remember the spot where my siblings and I always hid if we were trying to hide from out parents because we didn't want to leave. Having those memories is something I’m happy about because those would be stories I tell people when they ask me how my childhood was. Now looking back shows to me that I really miss that place, and the great memories with it. 

seeing ordinary objects differently

  

Usually people see a door as something that you use to go in and out of a room. Having your door open can mean that you like to be free, and you like to go outside your comfort zone.  Having the door open can mean that you are open to new ideas, and you don’t care about who walks in and out of your life. If the door is open it means you’re a person that likes to go with the flow of everything. The door being closed can represent a person that like to be conservative and likes everything the way it is already. You like the people in your life already and you don’t want them to walk out, but having the door closed can be bad because someone that wants to enter your life can never do so. If you keep the door unlocked you don’t mind being outside of your comfort zone it’s just that you prefer to be inside the zone. Just having the door open or closed to their room can explains lot about a person but most people don't see it that way. People don't understand that some little things that they do can explain so much about them. 

Introduction

I vision this this blog to be challenging because I'm not a big blogger, however I'm excited for the blog because it's something new to try. The fears i have about writing a blog is that I'm going to have to be creative on my own for blogs that have no structure. I also fear that people are going to judge what i blog about. The thing i like about most of this blog is that the people reading it wont know who I am, and they wont meet me physically. Things that I think ill have interest in about this blog is when people can start replying to my blog and vice versa.